“Maybe ever’body in the whole damn world is scared of each
other.”
― John Steinbeck
But I'm tired, John!! I'm tired of being dependant,
trusting, giving and always being lied to! So the only thing I have left is
being scared... Fear is natural - the one thing that can protect me from me and
from the others... To stay away - that is!!! I’ll stay away from everyone and
may be then, it’ll be ok! Faith, John… Fear and faith – these two will keep me
sane – fear to keep me away, faith that may be this time it will work out!...
Oh, but it’s so lonesome to be scared, John! So, so lonesome… But then again is
being lonely or dead, cause I know that one of these times they’ll kill me with
their lies. My heart will shatter, this time beyond repair if I forget to be
scared of them all, if I let my guard down. So it’s settled then, dearest John
– fear, faith and loneliness to survive it all.
Empty, NHr |
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