ME: No need

Growing stronger on your own
No need for me anymore at all
The goal was reached
You can face the world on your own
I'm no longer necessary.

The tears are rolling,
but I am happy -
you made it out of the shell
and whatever shape contains you now
you are happy too.

Do not remember the day I'll tell you I'll be leaving
go free and live the life you have
I'll keep the shape of you right next to me
for the rest of mine - for all I had before.

ME: Enough was not the same it was before

I woke up today

from a year-long slumber

and saw your shadow

in the dust,

in the whispered silence,

in the fires - dead and cold,

in the open door,

and the night outside.

My heart was numb

until I felt your absence,

until my skin cracked in pain

missing your touch,

needles from your eyes,

the bruises from your teeth,

the sweat from your breath,

the whisper of your love.

And then I knew -

you were gone forever!

Enough was not the same it was before - 

you tired of the games,

grew old from the rains,

weary from the pain,

exhausted from the searching,

heartless from the findings.

I knew before I lost you - 

you've lost me a million times.

We ran towards each other

in the wrong directions.

Around the globe we went

to find ourselves in one.

Reached different worlds,

only in our pain together.

ME: Today I killed

Today I killed.

What love was left in me is dead,

stifled by reason and by pain.

Burned us both to ash,

to stop the fire from raging,

to dry the tears and sear the hearts.

Today I crawled out of my soul - 

an empty husk of hope and dreams,

left it wither in the cold,

went along the way and be who they want me to.

Heartless, loveless and alone,

what loved you - dead,

what hated me - still living.

What you loved in me is gone -

the suicide of faith and of despair.

Today we died.


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The poem image also appears on MeMyselfAndEla's blog here

ME: Untouched

Pic from Rock&Roll Bride

Would you have hated me if I had stayed?

Would you have stayed, if I hadn't run away?

I know my tears are not yours -

the sky will cry with me tonight.

Your fears were mine however

to bleed my dry into the daylight. 

The lips unkissed they hurt the most,

the skin unseen - on fire - cold,

the breath not caught had drowned me,

the words not said - had killed us.

Without a sin the sinner walks

alone again, on empty paths.

Tomorrow's sun to blind my eyes

and burn the memory off into the sky.