ME: Will not be anymore

You call to me,

and I fall at your feet

but it will not be

anymore.

You come over

and I give you my life

when all you wanted

                                was one night.

Now I see the reason

laying naked on the floor

I couldn't see the truth

                                before.

Never gonna be the one again

you run to when there’s no one else,

and the one first to forget

                when there’s plenty other more.

ME: I give up

How many times

do I need to fall

and brake,

and my wounds to rot -

to learn

where my place is?

That I’m meant to be here

down, on the ground,

close to my hell

and far from your heaven…

I don’t have the heart

to cry you rivers anymore.

I don’t have the eyes

to continue the fight

and to live.

I don’t have the sanity

needed to keep going

rising up from the trash.

I give up.

ME: I wouldn't have...

I wouldn't have need you

if I were in possession of myself!

If my heart was obedient to my mind

And my body, cold to the touch of your hand!

I wouldn’t have felt your absence

If I were not made to be yours,

If I wouldn’t dream of you –

Conscious and asleep, of you and your kiss.

Countless faces on the streets and in my dreams

Passing through their lives as a wind,

as a storm - to ruin their insensible concentration

in an impossible scenario without “you&me”.

МЕ: A promise to break your heart

You think I’ll fade away,

that the memory will disappear,

but I’ll burn inside you always -

always leave you pain.

It was just a beautiful lie,

it was just in your head,

but the drops of your blood

still stain the sheets on your bed.

Imagine it was me to hurt

and bleed – dreams are free.

Dream of me wide awake

and cry the endless tears.

ME: Blackened

Stone blackened by the soot of our age,

Windows blackened by the soot of my soul.

Air darkened by the burning of our bodies

Steal melting by the heat of our hearts.

ME: Only when

Only when there are tears

In my eyes

You can see the stars

In the reflection

Of this salty truth.

Only when there’s no sound

You can hear the song

My heart sings to you

In the pounding rhythm

Of my life.

Only when there’s no one around

You can taste the love

On my lips

In the whisper

Of my soul.

ME: Leave open

"But I learned long ago
If you love someone you have to let it go 

The hardest part of letting go is saying 

Goodbye"

The hardest part of letting go - Megadeth

“The hardest part of letting go is saying goodbye”

you say?

Then don’t –

turn around and leave without a word.

Like that at least in my ears will ring forever

the nothingness that came out of you,

the emptiness of your will

the senselessness of your silence.

But at least it’s not a voice to haunt me,

it’s not a word to burn my soul,

so turn and leave without “goodbye”.

The door despite, leave open,

so someone else can come instead

to start that cycle, and run in to the same end.

ME: Disguise

Dye my hair and change the cut,

paint the lips and a sight so blunt,

change my name and leave for good,

never again honest, never the truth.

Running away, I know, ’s not an option

hiding myself is such a temptation.

Not me anymore, if I want to be over

with all of the pain and find it a closure.

ME: A monologue

What if I loved you,

                dear reflection,

would my life still be the same?

What if I tried,

                dear reflection,

in this madness to stay sane?

What if I tried,

                dear reflection,

to speak up when being hurt?

What if I tired,

                dear reflection,

to move away from all of the dirt?

Would I be still,

                dear reflection,

all the same – helpless and vain?

Would the world be,

                dear reflection,

still all about darkness and pain?

ME + Unknown author: An argument over life

I called you, but you didn't answer.

I invited you, but you didn't show up.

I tried to explain, but you didn’t listen.

I asked you, but you didn’t reply.

I told you, but you didn’t hear me.

I made a point, but you weren’t interested.

I beged for it, but you didn’t bother.

I said it to you, but you didn't care…

That’s why life is not so simple!

ME: Tell me you miss me

Tell me you miss me,

lie to me.

Tell me it’s me –

the light that shines

            through your tears,

tell me I’ll only see

the rainbow of soul

            behind these drops of pain.

Tell me you miss me,

lie to me.

Tell me it’s me –

the darkness that lurks

behind your broken heart,

tell me only I will hold

            your hand to heal from the pain.

ME: The moon is very scared

The moon is very scared,

Its face – in fear is wrinkled,

Its eyes are widely shut

To close its brain for the dire view,

Its mouth is barely open

To scream out loud it pain.

The moon is very scared,

It’s full of dreadful dreams –

Of our darkest nightmares

Of our deepest fears.

It shines the night enough

To see just how dark the shadows grow,

To scare us even more,

To drive us to dementia.

ME: If you love my pain

I’ll breath in all of your lies,

In pain every night I will die

Just to make sure you’ll come

back to me, night after night!

I’ll bleed out the smiles

And gasp all the kisses,

In lust and despair I will bathe

If it’ll make you want me again.

For the nature of your caress I don’t care

As long as you are there – by my side.

Time after time I will hide

From the world – to be only with you!

ME: From now on

"Am I happy today, am I lonely tomorrow 

Everything depends on you" - Europe

Open you heart

and close tight your eyes.

Prepare your soul

to be ripped apart.

Lose it all now

to get your freedom -

if not today then tomorrow

Let yourself go.

I won’t allow it anymore -

For my day to depend on you,

Now I will decide on my own

On my dusk and my dawn.

ME: Is it your game?

Do you tell lies and say it's special?

Do you look into my eyes

and think of what’s behind –

if I would even care or if already dead?

 

Do you ever dare to question

if you are fair –

to a broken mind already drowning in regrets

seeing all in black, hiding in the shades?

 

Did you ever wonder

if you are the King or yet another pawn?

Did it ever cross your mind 

there's someone else narrating?

ME: At sea bottom

A sea of metaphors was done -

lies have made up for a life.

Darkening sky crawls slowly,

drowning the sun in my eye.

At sea bottom I would lay

if there’s only where I won’t

hear your name mouthed

by another.

You tell me how

I can have it all and more

but your “all” I just don’t want

nothing much at all – it’s for the matter

What I want is just a storm

to wash you off my skin

and me out of your mind -

a rain to drown us all – senseless and insane.

ME: Shout, don't whisper!

Don’t speak –

for once I want to hear you shout!

Throw me on the ground and scream.

Call me names and then just leave!

I’m tired of all the whispers,

of all the silence and the muttered lies –

for once begin to tell me

what’s really on your mind!

Too old for tales and too tired of riddles,

speak your heart whether if it’s black or not,

be the beast you’re meant to –

raise up from the dark and then run into the night!

ME: A storm is born

A storm is born -

so beautiful and lovely!

As lightnings rape the blackened sky

and clouds lick the rooftops’ dirt away!

The Gods had send the storm to clean us,

to wash the sins and pain away…

And as every cleanse from sin

it does remind us

more of Devils work than else.

In storms we live

and storms will kill us –

they’d wash our blood away –

for where there’s storm

there’s nothing endless,

nothing lasts,

but just the rain!

ME: Getting lost

Getting lost within myself

looking in your eyes

to find the last remains -

the pieces of my soul.

Getting lost within you

hiding in your mind,

in hopes to be discovered

and brought back to life.

Getting lost in pictures -

flashbacks from a future

that never was and a past

                                that never will.

ME: I deny you

I deny you everything!

I deny you all reason,

I deny you all faith,

all hope to you I will deny!

I’ll rot all good that is in you,

I’ll dry all the veins to your heart,

I’ll starve all that colors your soul

all will wither from your human side.

For there is sun that’s never shining,

and there is pain that never stops,

and all this comes and serves as poison -

acid drops dancing from the rooftops.