Wednesday, August 13, 2014

ME: When...


When her hair is a mess
And her make up - smeared,
When her smile is broken
And her eyes - teared up…
Would you dare and love her?
Would you stick around?

When her jokes all turn gray
And her fingers are cold,
When her lips are dry
And her thoughts wander about…
Would you run away?
Or stay and love the blues away?


Sunday, June 1, 2014

ME: It's never enough


It’s too much
Or
It’s too little
It’s never enough-
Just enough to be unhappy…

Cause it being enough
Is me being happy…

And happy is hard!
Happy is brave,
Happy is content,
Happy is complete…

Happy is “you” in the others without the mask,
It’s “him” in you without the pain and the questions,
It’s  “you” in him for his and your lowest lows…


Sunday, May 18, 2014

ME: Сама ме оставете да се боря!


Сама ме оставете да се боря -
с любовите и със зверовете.
Насаме ме оставете – на мига!
Всичките безмилостно ще сборя,
Ще остана в крайна сметка пак сама.

Не ми помагайте във нищо –
не искам помощ във случаен миг!
Сама за благото си се преборих
и сама несгодите си сътворих!

Господарка съм на свойта мъка –
само тя не ме напусна през света,
не искам фалшивите ви ласки
и въздушните сълзи на съпричастността!


Saturday, March 22, 2014

ME: И вече нямам сили да вървя…


Стрелката на минутите се счупи,
А часовете си – отдавана спрях да ги броя
Светът от времето ми не се трогва,
Нито пък от моята тъга.

Часовникът отдавна спря да ми тиктака
Успокояващо-нашепващи слова,
Чувам само ударите на сърцето си
И черно-празна е нощта.

И компасът си загубих в пясъка
А дали пък не на оная църква в пепелта?
Въобще съм без късмет с стрелките,
И вече нямам сили да вървя…

Свърши ми душата и безсилна съм,
да насилвам да тече кръвта,
напълниха ми се със сълзи вените
и в нищото разтвори ми се вечността.

Tuesday, March 18, 2014

ME: Mourn 2


Mourn for what I could have been without you,
Mourn for what I could've been with you
Mourn for what I am without you
Mourn for what I am with you...

Mourn for every dream I dreamed of you
Mourn for every thought I thought of you
Mourn for every tear I shed for you
Mourn for every smile I gave.

Mourn of all the moments I loved you to the bottom of my core
Mourn for all the times I hated you enough to tear your soul apart.

Mourn for all the good you gave me
Mourn for all the pain we shared
Mourn for all the times you found me
And mourn for all the times that i felt lost.

Mourn for you without me
But most of all mourn I for me, above it all...

Monday, March 3, 2014

ME: If your love could save me would you promise it


If your love could save me
would you promise it
even if it might require
never seeing me again?

If you could promise
to a God you don’t believe in,
that you’d suffer all
to redeem both our sins…

Would you promise Him your pain,
your life and all your treasures,
the life of others and the love of us
to save me so I could keep on loving you?


Tuesday, February 11, 2014

ME: Questions without answer


"And we keep driving into the night
It's a late goodbye"
Poets of the fall - Late goodbye


If this is our last goodbye
how would you remember me?
Would you remember me at all?
In a month or two, will you recall?

If this is our last goodbye,
should I remember you?
Did you deserve remembrance,
or did you fight to find oblivion of all?

As life goes by and our world crumbles down
will you come back to my tear-filled eyes before the lights go out?
will I see your face in my sleep before my body runs out of breath
as your world turns left and mine turns right?

Will our ashes meet at the bottom of the ocean,
will our souls fly out - meeting in the clouds up high?
Will our lips, reborn on others, meet into another life,
and will all, we didn't tell each other, be spoken out to relieve the faith of another?


Thursday, January 23, 2014

ME: Done crying

"I'm done crying"
I've said that before...
one too many times...
It's a chant,
it's not a word of will anymore...
It will work one day!!!
One day I will stop
crying rivers of tears
for people who wouldn't
shed a tear for me at all!...
One day!....
Before I die!...

Friday, January 17, 2014

МЕ: Every time I'm dying


Every time I’m dying in your arms
For an embrace and for a kiss…
I can’t make it through
Anymore!

To pull you closer
And your soul runs away,
To leave you calm in ashes
And the want again to arise…

I can’t go on like this
Can’t take it anymore
It’s time to go
It’s time to leave it in the past!

Thursday, January 16, 2014

ME: Mourn


Mourn for the life.
Mourn for the death.
Mourn for the love.
Mourn for the hate...

Miss me forever.
Miss me today.
Forget all the love.
Forget all the games...

Walk away in the distance.
Walk away forever in time.
Don't return to what's not here.
Don't return to the confusion and pain...

Sunday, January 12, 2014

Ме: По пътя

Болнавите сенки се гонят небрежно
По тъмно-сивия прашен тротоар
Настигат се бавно и обратно побягват
Към бледо-призрачната светлина.

Вървя между тях и наивно си мисля,
Че те са моята компания във света
Вървя и не виждам как в тъмнина ме обгръщат
Водят ме към вечната самота.

Monday, December 23, 2013

Me: My biggest enemy

The nights I used to love 
But now I fear them most 
For the darkness always 
 Wakes up my darkest Demons and my past... 

 The nights are toughest to avoid 
for the darkness always falls 
 and when everyone's gone i'm left alone 
to fight my biggest enemy.... Me.

Friday, December 13, 2013

ME: Like a needle deep inside my vein


Like a needle deep inside my vein
you came into my life to stay.
Overdosing on your eyes
I find my heart in full surprise.

Once you’re gone
and I am finished -
nothing’s left
and life – diminished.

A new will come,
to swirl my dreams,
to mess my mind
and cause me tears.


Sunday, December 8, 2013

ME: Advice

Mentally undress me,
             lick my breasts
                       and take my pride,
otherwise don’t dare to touch me
for my skin is poisoned
and me eyes are filled with death.

Slowly blow yourself away
and leave me here alone to the decay.
Wave goodbye to all you had so precious
for I will rob you
                          of your dreams and passions
                                      and the vision of your days.



Friday, November 29, 2013

ME: What are we doing now?


So what are we doing now?
Lost in desire,
mad in regrets,
running away from the demons,
we hid in each other’s hearts.

Where do we hide
from each other’s sight,
from the failure
in times of need - to stand by
each other’s side?

The chaos we created
in our hearts, in our minds,
can only do us well –
finish us both and set us free
to roam in the kingdom of Death.


Tuesday, November 26, 2013

ME: Love me


Love me when there’s nothing left of me,
Love me when my flesh had turned to ash,
Love me when my soul is ether spread into the universe,
Love me when the memory of me is gone.

Love me for the love I had for you,
Love me for the hate I had for others,
Love me for the nights I spent with you,
Love me for the days I couldn’t live without you.

Love me for the songs I sang to you,
Love me for the verse in which the only rhyme was you,
Love me for the images of our love I took for you,
Love me, cause all I’ve ever loved was you!



Thursday, November 21, 2013

МЕ: Аnywhere but here



I just need to go away,
go further,
go back,
go anywhere but here!

For the passion I have
for the hate,
for the love,
for everything and the loneliness…

Through the years I keep running
through the day,
through the night,
through my life – tearing me apart…

You walked across my soul,
passed by my heart,
stopped at my lips,
and went away never to return…

I just need to go away,
go further,
go back,
go anywhere but here, waiting for you to leave!


Tuesday, November 19, 2013

ME: Will not be anymore


You call to me,
and I fall at your feet
but it will not be
anymore.

You come over
and I give you my life
when all you wanted
                                was one night.

Now I see the reason
laying naked on the floor
I couldn't see the truth
                                before.

Never gonna be the one again
you run to when there’s no one else,
and the one first to forget

                when there’s plenty other more.


Wednesday, November 6, 2013

ME: I give up


How many times
do I need to fall
and brake,
and my wounds to rot -
to learn
where my place is?
That I’m meant to be here
down, on the ground,
close to my hell
and far from your heaven…

I don’t have the heart
to cry you rivers anymore.
I don’t have the eyes
to continue the fight
and to live.
I don’t have the sanity
needed to keep going
rising up from the trash.


I give up.


Monday, October 28, 2013

ME: I wouldn't have...



I wouldn't have need you
if I were in possession of myself!
If my heart was obedient to my mind
And my body, cold to the touch of your hand!

I wouldn’t have felt your absence
If I were not made to be yours,
If I wouldn’t dream of you –
Conscious and asleep, of you and your kiss.

Countless faces on the streets and in my dreams
Passing through their lives as a wind,
as a storm - to ruin their insensible concentration
in an impossible scenario without “you&me”.