“Home!” –
she sighed
in relief
as she
closed the door behind her!
But it
lasted only for a second.
Only so
much it took
for her
reality to sweep under the door
and fill
the room with emptiness.
It wasn’t
hers!
And it
was empty.
It was
so far away
from what
she knew
and loved…
The loneliness
had clenched its fingers
Around her
neck and no door
could separate them.
The cold
had entwined with her hair
and would
lurk through the night.
The darkness
would hide in the corners
and under the bed,
but would
never completely disappear
or dissolve.
The silence
would whisper in her ears
and shout in her
dreams.
But at
least the others –
the others
weren’t there to see her anymore!
That’s
all that was important at the moment!
She’d
make friends with her demons.
She’d
talk to them,
read to them,
bed with them -
become
part of them,
but at
least no one else was around…
With
their fake concerns,
with
their accusations,
with
their watching eyes…
At least
there she was invisible!
